being an omegaverse scholar was all for this

[solveyou]

[In the grand scheme of things, Andrew doesn't think much about his relationship with Neil now that it's more defined. They're together. They're exclusive. That's all he needs or wants from a relationship.

When he was younger, maybe, Andrew thought a lot about what it would be like to be bonded. Media always made it seem so romantic: coming together with another person and deciding to tie your lives together. Forever. Which is, maybe, what made the prospect terrifying as he got older. It felt claustrophobic and appalling to tie himself to one person and only one person. What if he made the wrong choice? There's not many options for getting out of a bad bond—Andrew has some amount of faith that Aaron would help him however he could if he ended up in a situation like that, but still. He doesn't want it to ever be an option.

Which is why even agreeing to label his relationship with Neil was a bit terrifying. It's been good, though. Great, even. Bee says they have a really healthy relationship and encourages him about it a lot.

But still. The idea of bonding has never once actually crossed his mind. It has especially never crossed his mind while sitting around in their apartment and drinking a protein shake.]

Comments

[nofoxtogive]

I always deal with Kevin when it comes to things. You don't get to hear him as much as I do anymore.

[He turned and leaned back against the cabinet putting the can of tuna next to the box dinner. He was kind of excited to work on it, what was becoming of him? Was he going soft. He tapped the box with his pointer finger.]

It's happened. I've been domesticated.

[solveyou]

Oh no. The horrors.

[Andrew finally gets up from the couch to wander into the kitchen. Leaning against the counter, he eyes the box dinner.]

Next thing I know you're going to accept one of those meal box sponsorships and be cooking us stuff not from boxes.

[Which would be fine. Honestly, Andrew kind of likes that Neil's found a hobby? Or at least something enjoyable that isn't exy. And also it has drastically cute down on their take-out bill, which is kind of a plus. More money for cat toys.]

[nofoxtogive]

Now you're just dreaming.

[Of course, he wasn't but Neil was taking things slow. He had never really been one to eat more than fruit and vegetables when he was on the run with his mother. Take out and gas station food had been a large staple in his life as well.

Staying in one place for so long had been almost confining in a way, but he had worked through it with Andrew. He'd wake up in the morning and again look to the windows and doors, look around the room they were in, the house they had together, and he would talk himself through staying all over again.

He loved his life here with Andrew. There was no reason to run anymore. He turned and grabbed the box and started to open it, pulling out the packets and the pasta.]

[solveyou]

I hear we're allowed to do that now. Dream. Want things.

[It's said quietly, because if Neil's had to learn how not to run then Andrew's had to learn how to be okay with being selfish. He's allowed to want things without justifying them, allowed to have the impossible pipe dream of Neil. Of someone who wants to stay with him forever, apparently.

The thought is still a little terrifying, if he's being honest, but at the same time... nice? It's nice to know that Neil wants right back.]

[nofoxtogive]

Yeah. Definitely.

[It was easy to agree with Andrew. He had wanted a life, he wanted to play exy, and he wanted to stay beside Andrew. Everything he wanted he had. So, he was happy with everything, he turned and grabbed a pot and put water into it and turned the stove on, placing the pan down.

He turned his head to the side to look at Andrew.]

Is there anything you want?

[solveyou]

I think I would be okay with wanting to get bonded to you.

[For someone who's usually direct to the point of rudeness, the statement is a bit circuitous. He's not quite ready to say he wants to be bonded to Neil yet, but he's okay with the idea. It's more than he had an hour ago.]

I want... this. Forever.

[Andrew gestures between the two of them, unsure of how to encompass wanting the totality of everything they've been through in the English language.]

[nofoxtogive]

[Hearing the confession from Andrew nearly made him over rip the packet he had in his hands. He stopped and looked at Andrew, and carefully sat down the packet, turning off the burner.]

Forever is a long time. Are you sure?

[A nice warmth settled into the pit of his stomach at the words. Neil took a step towards Andrew a smile on his lips, one that he would be unable to bat it away or hide it, so he didn't try. He murmured.]

Yes, or no?

[solveyou]

... Yes.

[It's the answer to both questions. By this point, the specifics of what Neil is asking consent for aren't important to Andrew in the way they used to be. The fact that he still asks is what Andrew cares about. Neil knows how to touch him, and he's fine with being touched right now so saying yes is the easiest thing in the world.]

[nofoxtogive]

[Neil waited for a beat, reaching out finally to grip gently at the back of Andrew's neck. He stepped forward and kissed him once gently, and then afterward pulling back before pulling him back in for a firm and proper kiss. He had learned how gentle and when it was appropriate versus a more hard version that happened in the midst of other encounters.

He wanted to be good to Andrew, so he tried to remember all the things he liked, but wouldn't neglect the things he liked either. Pulling back, he smiled at Andrew.]

I think forever is good too.